Safety and security
I have never felt safe.
Pretty much for my whole life, I've never felt safe.
I didn't know it for decades, but becoming aware that I'd got subconscious stories that were impacting my life this way helped make some huge changes.
I have learned to value myself.
I have learned to love all of myself, even the angry, sad and selfish parts.
I have learned to be in my own body and hold myself in safety.
I have learned so many things I can't write into words.
I have also released a lot of the stories that told me I wasn’t safe.
I know I have the tools to be truly healed from it all.
Yet f*** me sideways, life has this uncanny way of adding to the lessons.
The events of the last 2 months have literally shown up for me the depths of insecurityI once felt, that I had literally never, ever felt safe until I faced it.
I know I'm not alone. Even if you didn't grow up with religious dogma, abusive caregivers, threats of war, etc. The chances are you've still had times that you felt unsafe, that your body and nervous system have never truly had space to process before you're thrown into the next experience.
Add in the fact the world around us can bombard us with some interesting stories. Then there is the celestial, cosmic energy at play. Information that you've never been taught to navigate. So if you feel like you're always in a place of uncertainty or stress, well you're not alone!
I'm here to teach you how to, because that awareness became the key to unlocking actual feelings of safety.
Feeling unsafe can come into our life from so many angles.
For decades I lived in fear of God destroying me if I ever made one tiny mistake. I lived in this fear while also thinking I was a terribly naughty little girl who needed to be hit to learn how to be good.
These 2 things as I reached my late teens had convinced me not only did I have to fear God would kill me for the slightest thing, but that I was in fact full of bad actions that would inevitably end up in that destruction.
By the way, the big, all terrible things I'd done to this point were, wait for it, nothing!
I'd never been in a fight, never hurt anyone, I'd never even been drunk or smoked a cigarette. But brain washing is interesting like that, convincing the innocent they're not good enough.
In my 20s I did smoke, occasionally, I drank and went clubbing, and had slept with my boyfriend. Just the one mind you, because that's just how terrible I was.
At 25 I allowed myself to receive the punishment of public humiliation, having the people I knew told I'd been 'reprooved' by the men in charge.
My boyfriend also received the same, so everyone could guess why. For the record, we'd done it lots before confessing, but decided we wanted to be good, honest little cult members, so faced our punishment of public gossip, I mean, reproof.
This incident began the unravelling of my religious indoctrination. I began to see the religious structure for what it was, controlling people's emotions and behaviour.
It didn't end yet, though, as I committed the worst 'sin' I could in my brainwashed mind. At 29, I left the 'protection' of the structure I'd been told was the only thing that would protect me from God's wrath.
Now of course, my logical mind calls BS on that completely. My logical mind is sensible. It sees this as a total lie, but f*** me sideways again. My subconscious is not so easily convinced!
It has taken years of deconditioning and deprogramming from these stories to find the tools to bring me into my body and find safety, even when life still throws the odd curveball your way to hit you in the head!
This is what I teach people in so many of my offerings and services.
Do you know how to feel safe in your own body?
Do you believe you can have all you dream of?
When you factor in to life right now the last few years of media brainwashing it can certainly feel hopeless or like you're totally alone in wishing for better.
The stories of fear that my logic brain calls BS on, but losing friends, losing family, seeing businesses shut down and people die, all impacts that subconscious to make me feel like I'm not safe.
In the last 2 months I've faced losing my home at the exact time I chose to become financially responsible for myself and by extension my family, and I sort of think I've never felt as unsafe as I do now, and honestly, after believing for 30 years that God could destroy you at any time, that's actually a pretty big realisation.
If you feel constantly unsafe, insecure or fearful chances are your nervous system is in survival mode.
This could come from various factors in your life, from your past, the present, or worries of the future based on these things.
We all deserve to feel safe though. We all deserve to be free from these feelings.
This is what I teach you as a mentor.
First how to face your shadows, your past, your stories, with conscious awareness they are effecting you. Then I teach you how to integrate them, learn from them, and release the hold they have on your subconscious.
can teach you tools to use day-to-day, minute to minute. I can teach you to understand how your energy system functions and about your unique energy blueprint. This will empower you to develop self trust and become self directed by your inner guidance or intuitive wisdom.
You don't have to stay stuck where you are any longer. You deserve to find everything you wish for and desire in life. Let's get started. The only thing holding you back is the old beliefs, and now it's time to be free.
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